“Only This Blue” is a long poem that
explores coping with a life-threatening experience through the guidance of colour. Warland experiments with usage of
words and poetic structure, such as line breaks and white space to create depth
and meaning. The narrator of the long poem struggles with the effects of an
illness, and learns a new and uneven landscape through the use of words and
colour. There are four dominant colours in the poem: green, red, yellow and,
finally, blue. Warland uses colour to identify a language for her experience.
The concept of the long poem was not
something Warland had initially designed. The colours came as she was going
through treatment. She had been writing non-fiction for four years and facing a
life-threatening experience brought her back to poetry, as she said she had a
need to write “closer to home”. The book was originally meant to be written in
four suites of colours, and then gradually became one long, united poem. Her
inspiration of colour stems from the colours of nature. Blue is the colour of
the sky, and “the sky is unknowable and yet it holds great comfort and wisdom”. Colour “became a major guide
for me.”
“I don’t have a negative association with
any colour, as they represent the natural world for me. When going through a
life-threatening experience, it is important to find a companion or
relationship. As a child, a great companion to me was nature. When we are going through a crisis it can provoke
fear in other people but nature is never afraid of you,” said Warland. “Now I
live in an urban environment, but I value the natural world still thriving
amidst the concrete.
There is a significant absence of blue
throughout the poem, until the end of the book, when blue appears as a symbol
of knowledge and calm; a realization and acceptance of the illness and knowing
there is nothing we are able to control.
“There is a tendency when facing a big
unknown to seek structure and answers. Once
you go through something like that, you realize that you don’t know what will happen. This is our human condition – our
awareness of uncertainty– and learning to embrace that is freeing; is a relief!
For me, blue bridges everything, as it holds all colours.”
Warland has published nine books, which
includes – What holds us Here (1998)
and serpent (w)rite (1987) – a
memoir, Bloodroot: Tracing the Untelling
of Motherloss (2000), and essays, Proper
Deafinitions (1990).
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